Just only after one day of school, JS started to cough badly again and with bad wheezing. She has also vomitted twice. Keeps me wondering, it’s the food that the teachers had offered or was it the environment. Is her sensitive/allergy brochial that bad?? Because of the cough so frequently, we have actually deprive her from many things she used to enjoy before ie ice cream, certain fruits and food and we don’t even bring her to the pool anymore. Was it her body way of protesting of going to school that make her sick each time, so that she can get to stay home?? Makes my heart ache to see her cough like that. So, off to staying home again for this week.
Now the 2 sided me is fighting against each other. The kiasu side has wanted JS to continue school, the other side of me think her health is more important. I feel like crying and being like tearing apart on coming up with a decision. No matter how many million times I chant “I dont want to be kiasu” “I don’t want to be kiasu” “I don’t want to be kiasu” ….. but the evil side of this kiasuism still seems to stand out louder than the other side of me.
