Sick Again

Middle of the night, JS was fussing and kicking around with her eyes half closed and not fully awake. Got a bit annoyed and tried to get her back to sleep in a not so nice tone. After that I tried to get back to sleep and suddenly I remember about my post on sleep talk and that Hui Sia has mentioned about body heatiness in the comment. It’s just like a flash of thought, the word “FEVER” cross my mind, I don’t know how, but somehow I manage to relate body heatiness to fever and right away check on JS’s body temperature. Sure enough, she’s having a mild fever. Didn’t use or cross check with the termometer, as by handling and hugging her everyday, with a slightest change of temperature, I can feel it with my bare hand. She was OK during the day, still hopping and jumping around, talking loudly, no sign of getting sick at all beside the occational sneezing for the past 2 days. Check on the clock, it was 1.39am, fed her paracetamol and warm water. After that I can hear that she’s trying very hard to get back to sleep with her blocked nose. She was tossing and turning around.

Woke hubby up and told him that JS has got fever. Straight away he concluded that she must have got infected in school. (I’m not too sure about that , but I know she was lack of rest on the weekend which might make her weak and more prone to infection from where ever we went, not just school) He said ” No need to go school anymore lah” ( I wonder… if that’s the long term solution? I can’t keep my girl at home forever.. somehow someday she would have to attend school and she needs to build up her body immunity) Then hubby said ” give her drink the prayer water” …. arrghh…this is something I don’t like about my hubby. A modern educated young man, a Buddhist, an engineer which should have a logical mind, but sometimes his mind is still so “kolot” and old fashion and SUPERTITIOUS like an “Ah Soh Si Lai”, he still has some of these thinking and actions implanted in him by his parents. I feel like want to “cekik” him. It’s so unmanly and sexy to have a man utter these words and have these practices. I feel disgusted with the supertitious practices. Sometime when something happens, hubby would say ” I will ask my father to go ask “Hong Ku” ( I don’t know whether the Hong Ku is a person, a medium or a statue or ITS whereabout. It seem mysterious, hubby only said Hong Ku is a family guardian) Whenever he mentioned some of this SUPERTITIOUS thing, I really feel like SLAP SLAP SLAP… WAKE UP WAKE UP. Anyhow I’m not a person who believe in all this and WOULD NOT FOLLOW/COMPLY and I there’s no point arguing. I have to grin my teeth and remain SILENT! OK..out of topic..back from the detour. I made a mental note to bring the kids to the paed in the morning.

At the same time WH also started to fuss a little and wanted to be nursed. He also had a very mild runny nose since last week. It was like runny a while, gone then came back again another day. (Gave him more doze of Vitamin C and Cod Liver Oil the past few days) Nursed him back to sleep. After that I tried to go back to sleep. My turn to toss and turn around with blocked nose (such a strong germs!!) and headache. It was 2.49am, more than1 hour after JS woke up. Popped 2 panadols and 1 Clarinase. Finally manage to sleep, but the brain still seems to be quite alert throughout the night, worrying that JS’s fever will rise, worried that WH also will get fever.

Brought them to the paed just now. He said just normal flu. Gave them medicine. JS’s flu is starting to get worst now. Very runny. I hope WH won’t get the full blown of it. I’m really scare and worry to see them get sick and suffer and 9 out of 10 times I would also fall sick together. Mainly due to sleep deprive, my body resilent is very low when they are sick. Also WH would demand long hour nursing at night when he’s not well, that left part of my body exposed in the air con room. ( How not to get sick?) Now with a little sign of getting sick, I would quickly take medicine, unlike last time I would let my body to recover itself. I’m scared that when I’m full blown sick, I would past back the germs to the kids and surely I would be too tired to take care of them when myself is sick. I think I’m stronger when without kids. I hardly fall asick and hardly take medicine. Now I’m as weak as my kids.

I should always remember that when my kids started not sleeping through and soundly and fussing in the middle of the night, that means they are beginning to feel not well. Must clear my sleepy head immediately to attend to them than trying to coax them to sleep.