I Love Butter Cake

Haven’t posted any food/my cooking related post for a while. Nope, I haven’t give up cooking and baking. Still experimenting all the new recipes, but just too lazy to take picture each time I’m cooking.

Each week I tried baking different butter cake. Sometimes yummy, sometimes turn out to be a failure. Last week I baked a Longan Butter Cake. Yummy… I love longan. Today I’m baking Cheddar Butter Cake. I just love Butter Cake … (how to lost weight and go on diet???), can’t find any good butter cakes in the bakery now except maybe in hotel’s cafe. All the cakes sold in the bakery are not buttery enough, the margerine portion is much more than the butter I suppose. So when I crave for butter cake, I go into full action and bake 1 for myself. Fully pure butter not margerine or planta.

I’m still experimenting my oven. Don’t think is a good oven. I don’t like the colour of my product. Each time it’s not golden brown, rather whitish. Hubby bought this oven when we first moved in last year, that time I confinement in PJ, I suppose when you get a man to buy for kitchen appliances alone, surely they are not expert in it, will turn up with the oven stove I have now. I have tried to raise the temperature rather than recommended in the book, I have tried all the different levels in the oven, still my cake is not golden brown. And it usually take longer time than recommended to cook each dish in my oven. Frustrated. But lucky I’m not a cake seller…. no look never mind, just the taste of the cake and the buttery smell is already sastifying to me!
Cheddar Cheese Butter Cake. The cheese really makes it smell GOOD.

Dream Home

Hubby is ready to invest in our own property. He scouted around and did some survey and found a place we like. In a good location, not too near to in-laws and my parents – for our own space, and yet not too far just in case need help. It’s freehold, landed property, it’s affortable to hubby’s budget and the layout of the house is nice and the size is also just nice for our small family of 4 and later 5.

Hubby found out about this project accidentally. He quickly registered during the soft launch. The respond during that time was good, almost 90% taken up or booked. I was quite excited about it, thinking that in 2 years time, we can have a place to call home to ourself. The timing would be just nice when we move back for JS’s formal schooling. We can do up the house the way we like it. However, things never goes as plan….sad.

Waited for a few months for their official launch. Developer claimed that they need to convert the commercial land to housing. So we patiently waited, and finally we got a letter informed us about the formal launch. Hubby quickly prepare the 10% down payment and got every document ready and we really hope that we could sign the S&P on the day of launch itself. I guess hubby was just too excited and “sum kap”, he paid the downpayment and there’s no S&P. Developer said go back in a week time to sign. Lesson learned, never pay in full/just pay the minimal when the document is not readied.

After a week, the developer claimed that the respond was not good. Though a lot of people booked, but they didn’t turn up after the launch. So they are currently only launching the first two row (ours the fifth) and they promised to refund part of our down payment. It has been a month, no progress and cheque also not ready.

I know hubby’s very frustrated and worry because his money is being tied up there where there’s no progress and the developer is dragging and taking their time for the refund. We really don’t know when we would get to sign the S&P. So our dream home will take some time to be true. Housing projects are so competitive now, really don’t know when we can own our dream home.

A little tired of the current house we staying. After all it’s not ours. Though there’s a big compound but no proper landscape, only yellow soil and patches of grass here and there. The build up of the house is small with no build in cabinets, kitchen not properly done and it’s only with cement floor. Visualizing my dream home……. but I should be grateful we still have a roof over the head now and that staying in the same house with hubby. If we got the dream house and hubby is still working here, I guess we would be back to staying apart and only have hubby at home during the weekend.

I Went Beserk…..

I did it again…. I did it again last night, loosing my temper over JS.

Last night, she refused to eat her dinner and later puke all over. Hubby has asked her to sit down together at the dining table to eat with us asking her to feed herself, but she just ran here and there and wanted me to feed her but reluntact to open her mouth and later threw up. Hubby lost control scolded her and I lost my temper too. She actually just vomitted on the carpet which can be easily clean up by the maid. But I got mad because JS has specially requested to have pasta for dinner instead of the normal porriadge, so on top of the many dishes I cooked last night (5 plus 1 soup and 1 drink) I prepared her special requested dinner (sounds like a restaurant chef! ha). I was already a little bit “mang chang” when cooking dinner because hubby came back early, (partly because of poor time management…been addicted to the 6 pm TV3 canton drama) and then she refused to eat, makes me more angry.

Yesterday wasn’t the worst of it, there were times that JS vomitted in her sleep after a bad cough, and after WH has fallen asleep then I would be really the grumpiest person on earth. (Even when there’s a maid to help. This is when I needed her most for all these mess that happens so often) With all the hoo-haa, his sleep would be disturb and he would get cranking.

There are so much cleaning to be done.
1) JS herself. Puke will be all over her.
2) There are so many things on the bed. 3 duvets, half a dozen pillows, bolsters, soft toys. Depends on JS’s sleep position, the amount of cleaning varies
3) Bedsheets. (If her pukes gets to the gap between her bed and our bed, then need to push the beds apart to mop the floor as well)
4) Pillow case
5) Mattress protector

And if she accidentally peed in her sleep then I would have more things to clean up. I’m lucky so far she only peed in her nap less than 5 times ever since she’s off diaper during the day (she was really tired and slept through after drinking alot of water). I know the amount of cleaning the pee is more than a puke. But the puke has got more yucky texture and smell.

I know I shouldn’t blame her, as bed wetting is not frequently happens in her and it’s not uncommon and when she pukes means she isn’t feeling well. But still if I’m not in the mood, instead of soothing her, I’m actually blaming her and making her REAL feel bad. Whenever I went beserk, I feel regret later for hurting the kids little pride again.

I don’t know if it’s the once a month thing that I flares up easily or am I so much influence by hubby’s mood. Hubby wasn’t in his good mood for the past 2 days. Usually when JS makes him more angry on top of his already glum mood, then I will be angry with JS for making hubby furious. I’m already not a patience person. I’m short temper and I lost my cool easily especially when JS does not comply to what I said. Somemore seeing hubby not in his mood, I would start to have doubt if I have done anything wrong or not sastifying to please him, is he mad at me. The thought of this is enough to make me go beserk.

We are one very “Cuckoo” family. As if everyone from daddy, mummy to JS all have mood swing. If you read my blog often, then it’s likely that I bring you for a emotional roller coaster ride of this mood swing thingy very very often. I’m learning …learning still to control my emotion. It’s in better control now. But hubby still comment ” why do you always have to talk to JS in a harsh tone. Don’t your studies teach you that it’s not good for her……” Yeah…guilty guitly…haven’t put in practise of what I’ve learned.

文抄公

昨天读了MG的部落格,方知她的很多文章都被别人一字不漏,原汁原味的抄袭了. 一些很私人的经历都被化称为这文抄公己有. 这文抄公也真不知羞耻, 敢敢还把自己的照片大大的上载在部落格里. 还有还有, 文抄公也盗用了双喜妈妈的特制图标和文章,还称自己为土阿妈. (那是双喜妈妈的标签啊!) 真有人这么厚脸皮. 整个部落格的真实性实在让人置疑. 或许是东抄抄,西抄抄而成.被抄的都是我的 VERY FAVOURITE BLOGGERS (MG & Twinsmom) 的部落格,谈不上是朋友因不曾相见,但她们象我的breastfeeding and blogging 师夫, I look up to them. 实在为她们感到不平. 每一字,每一个图标都是她们的心血,泪和汗,既然有人那么不道德.

部落格是很个人的东西,就像日记.记载自己的贴心经历,思维.哪有人这么不要脸,连别人的婚礼都能化称为己有.难道真的那么低能, 无法观察和记录下自己和女儿的对话,非抄别人的不可? 实在过分,无耻.不会写,头脑蠢得一字都写不出,就别学人家玩部落格! 有时我在别人部落格中看到好文章,有时会盗用一两句,但也不置于一篇又一篇的抄袭不顾.她的目的是什么?那是什么心态?心理不平衡, 变态?还是在尝试讨读者的肯定.撇视这种人. 欺骗了自己的老公,朋友及读者还把别人的成就归功于自己, 良心过得去吗?死不要脸. 非把这种人骂得狗头淋血.

在着个cyberworld里真的无所不有.像老公说的”防人之心不可无”.不敢向老公提及这事,要不他会下令不准我写部落格, 也会骂我没把他的话放进心里.说我忠言逆耳. 他一定会说“I told you so, but you never listen!”. 这也只不过是文抄公变态的抄袭,肯定还有更变态与心理不平衡的.难以想象他们会做出什么.火还没烧到自己眉头不知热,还不想放弃我心爱的部落格. 要防也是防不胜防.

事情摆平了. 事主原谅了文抄公. 如果是我,我想我不会那么大人大量和宽容的心,务必追究到底. 弄得这人茶饭不思, 死去活来,坐立不安. 我就这么小家.

有人会认为这又不管我是, 怎么酱多事,写得象爱打抱不平, 其实是在煽风点火,多管闲事. 三八又鸡婆! 写了才感痛快. 好像是在幸灾乐祸文抄公的行为被揭穿, 把我的快乐建在他的痛苦中. 爽耶!反正这是我的部落格,我想写什,就写什. 管你屁事!

Psst: 用中文写,不想让老公看懂. 哈哈!