Busy Friday

Uuuhh….finally I get to sit down after a long busy day. Will be going away tonight for my dad’s birthday bash…..spending the weekend at a resort. It’s also like a family reunion…so I’m putting a little effort to bring something over…

The very ambitious me has been busying the whole morning making some snacks. I’ve made ladu sengkuang and kuih keladi and mud cupcakes in the afternoon.

 no pic of cupcakes yet, still baking in the oven.

My boy has been generally well behaved while the maid and me were busy. He was entertaining himself with books and toys and only much later he joined in.

 

The mess …

 

…while making this..

I still haven’t pack yet and have some phone data to sort out…..it’s already 4 pm…need to cook dinner as well.

ok ok…better make this short and more updates when back on Monday…..

I’m Not My Blog

I can yak non stop in my blog, letting my thoughts flow freely here. But in person, I’m all quiet and reserved till I might be mistaken as a SNOB.

I’m not someone that knows how to initiate a small talk. I’m not someone who feel comfortable open up myself and share my thoughts and feelings verbally 

Hubby always said “You got gold in your mouth ah. Can’t you open your mouth to ask/speak”

This has very much got to do with my upbringing.

• I’m one who is with a lot of insecurity and very inferior with very low self esteem. Too self consious with too little confident.
• I’m afraid of how people judge me
• I’m afraid that I might bored my listener by being self centered because beside talking about myself and my kids, I don’t know what other topic to talk about.
• I’m afraid to be label as a “brag” like showing off and bragging about myself
• I’m afraid that what I say might not be of interest to my listener and they have to force to listen to me but inside them they are cursing me, hopping me to stop soon.
• I get panic trying to express my thoughts verbally so the tone sometimes ended up like looking for a fight

But I like to listen to others. I don’t mind if you pour out your heart to me and I’m most willing to lend a ear….