Real Shitty

I cannot access my blog @ montessorimum.com because it has exceeded the bandwidth limit. I want to cry now as I cannot reach my host. Has been trying to contact him when I first got the warning on my bandwidth near exceeding bandwidth, but I have not hear from him and now I no longer can access my web. ARggghh… help..what am I going to do.

I’m afraid that my sponsored posts got rejected because advertisers cannot access my web. I have 5 tasks due tomorrow… looks like I am going to lost USD25 for not completing the task on time and leaving a bad reputation to the advertiser.

I feel so bad now as I cannot access my blog.  HELP!!!!!!!

Slow Internet Connection

Have been experiencing slow connection since this morning…almost impossible to surf to any side… but I’m surprise I’m still able to login to WP..trying my luck to see if I’m able to post this up.

The cause of internet disruption is due to the earthquake in Taiwan that caused damage to the link. Read here

Was it a sign, a cry out by mother nature or was it just coincident that major calamities always happened during Xmas time?

N2 or Exilim

Almost time for our 5 years old sony cybershot 2.0 to retired.  Currently looking in Sony N2 and Casio Exilim but undecided…. canon is good but a little pricey

 

Like the features of sony, but not so much of the shape. 

Exilim card the highest is 7.2 megapixel but nicer shape…..

Yet another decison to be made….

Refreshing

sunflower in my garden

PC Kaput

Thought that I can go online and blog full force after coming back from Subang, but my pc died on me after a thunder storm on Tuesday last week. Being strike by the lightning. First sent to the shop for a day to have the motherboard changed. Took back the pc the next day and realize that something wrong with my streamyx. I suspected the modem prob, called TmNet to log a case on Thursday and didn’t get a respond until this evening. Tmnet service really sucks!!! Just a simple modem problem but refused to come and look into it and left me so many days isolated from the net!!!!!

So many things to catch up now… need to download softwares to be installed in the pc…

I was so enthusiated about PPP and also comtemplating on going dot com last week and now mood also no more liao. Hhhmm…shall I or shall I not go dot com?

While I Was Away…

The reason of my absent for 2 weeks was because I need to go back to Subang to attend a 13 days compulsory workshop for my course.

For the past 2 weeks, it’s again back to a 9 – 5 lifestyle for me.. in fact I leave home around 8.30 am everyday and came back only at about 10pm. I have mixed feeling for this kind of lifestyle. After staying home full time for 2 years, it’s a very refreshing change. But I do hate the jam at LDP each morning and certain nights. It has been years since I experienced this kind of rush hour jam. At one point I feel lucky that I dont have to go through that daily (except for that 2 weeks)

Being outside the house without the kids and with only adult interaction is refreshing. A few occation when my class ended early, I even went shopping alone. It’s also an eye opener experience when I mingle with the people (mostly teachers) during the workshop and get to know about our education system especially in the field of early childhood education.  I’ve gained knowledge and information on what’s going on in that field and I know what and how to set my expectation when looking for school for my kids.

While I enjoyed this freedom and Me-time, at the same time I’m also full of guilt when my kids asked for me. The first day I came home from class, WH was so angry with me that he doesn’t even want to come near me. JS was constanly crying. For 13 days, she cried each morning when I left home and also at night before she goes to bed. She kept counting the days and also kept saying “tomorrow you cannot go school” “tomorrow, no need to go anymore, I will hold you tight tight and dont let you go out” “i’m so angry, you never spent time with me, you never bring me out” ”I miss daddy and mummy, I’m so sad, I want to go home. daddy alone at home very sad….” ”I miss home, I miss lavender, I miss uncle sidek and abang…” I had such a hard time with her, good thing is that WH just angry with me for a day, other days he will happily see me off to class and happily welcome me back and straight away asked to be nursed.

I made a habit to call home everyday during lunch break…just like any working mum will do…. and most time JS is so long winded and refused to put down the phone… she kept saying “are you coming back now? on the way ah? what you doing now? where you have lunch? with who? what’s your friend’s name ? what’s your teacher’s name…… ” until I have to cut off the phone most time and my mum said that she will cried everytime I cut off the phone bluntly.

I have this contracting thoughts in me… i wish my course never end that I can keep going out, learn something and have me time but at the same time I can’t help to have it over soon so that my poor kids dont have to go through this ordeal.

My in-laws were also very worried and paranoid… kept asking me if the kids will be ok under my mum’s care and with me not around.

One of the evening I also brought my kids to visit a Montessori Kindy near my parent’s place. The reason is that I want to test on how much I’ve learned during the workshop if I will be able to distinguish a real Montessori school and those fake ones. I can say that the school is very impressive and the fees is cheap and they actually looking for teachers.  How I wish so much that i’m just staying near by and able to accept the job. I had a good chat with the principle who is a true Montessorian.. in fact she is trained in the same centered as me. How I wish there’s a place for me to pratice my studies and really work with children.

I’m Back!!

It’s good to be back home and back online after two weeks.

I like spending time with my parents, but staying at their home is so different from staying at own home. So glad to be back.

It has been 2  long weeks without the PC, 1000 over feeds to read and and so many mails to read. For once I thought I could really slow down on my blogging after this 2 weeks break, but after reading the comments that still comes in during my absent and also while reading the feeds, I have the urge to blog again.  Really envy MG for having her own domain now(congrats MG for having your own domain!!) .. how I wish I could be as good as her in blogging.

I thought I can train my kids to be more independent and wean WH off breast during the last 2 week while I was away, but seems like it didn’t really work. When we are back home, they seems to be even more ‘manja’ than ever sticky to me like a super glue. WH from day to night only crying for nen nen. (I even tried to apply minyak cap kapak angin yesterday, hoping that the smell and spicy taste will stop him from nursing, but it didn’t work, he will cried complaining ”lat lat” and will continue to nurse) and everything else (from feeding to carrying a chair for him) is “Mummy Do”. Even JS wanted more of my attention to make up for the days when I was not home. There’s certainly alot of crying at home fighting for my attention this past few days.  :( Sometimes I wonder why my kids are so sticky and manja to me.

Busy

The lack of posting in my blog this week, the lack of appearing online this week, all because….

… busy packing

… busy rushing off 2 assignments to be handed in next week

… busy compiling a video slide show for my MIL’s birthday.

… busy cathching up with other assignments writing which I realize is a little behind schedule

… busy researching and reading up for resource to write up those essays

… busy dont know with what somemore..

All these because of poor time management and my last minute attitude. 

Will only catch up with the writing when I’m back and hopefully able to steal sometime to update what I learn next week using my bro’s laptop.

I’ll Be On A Two Weeks Blog Break!

Sick..Sick…Sick

Since the weekend, I have been playing nurse to three babies – 2 small babies and one big baby to be exact. (That explain the lack of blogging & blog hopping) and I feel really tired.

Saturday, gone back to in-laws. FIL took JS (yup, just grandfather and granddaughter) out to play the whole afternoon, she skipped her nap.  Later in the night, we took her to SIL’s boss house for Raya open house. JS’s face started to flushed at night follow by a few sound of cough. “Uwek” twice. Called in the night early. But she didn’t sleep well, her body was really hot at 1.30am. No paracetamol at SIL’s place. 2.30am, hubby decided to sent her to the 24hours policlinic.  Before leaving the house, she “uwek” again. Got the maid to clean up the place, me took care of WH who is also down with some cough and flu. Doc said JS’s had high fever (39C). I realize each time when she exert herself and get over excited, she will get fever.

Sunday, suppose to be SIL’s birthday, originally plan to have western lunch at Bangsar, but since JS’s sick and didn’t wake up till 10am, lunch appointment cancelled…just tar pau and eats in.

Night, back home. After dinner, call in the night early again. At 11pm, hub complaint about tummy ache and since then he has been puking and purging none stop.  He was so weak that he can barely stand and walk. Drove him to the nearby 24hours clinic at 1.30am. Left the kids who were all asleep under maid’s care. Came back an hour later, WH already woke up, crying fratically looking for us and the maid soothing him. At this moment, I realize how important it is to have family members staying near by.

This clinic, eventhough there wasn’t any patient, but we still have to wait for a good 15mins to see the doc. Hubby was so weak, he kept asking when the doc would see him. (the last time I sent JS in for assthma also I was made to wait for a good 10-15minutes). When we arrived, I went to register and the receptionist would press the bell to “WAKE UP” the doctor . I’m very sure the doctor must be sleeping in one of the room, if not he wont take a good 15 minutes to see a patient. ( I suppose he’s wearing a sarong, he needs the 15 minutes to change, maybe brush his teeth and comb his hair before he’s ready to receive the patient). What kind of doc’s professionalism is that. If this is really an emergency, the 15minutes would be really crucial.  Anyway , we waited that 15 minutes and the cosultation time is less than 5 minutes…and the doc doesn’t even say what causes my dear hub to be so sick. I have to asked “is it food poisoning” and doc “looks like it” and never even say much. after that just said “ok” (that means we can go…no further explanation, nothing) what to do..this is the nearest clinic available at that wee hour.

Monday , continue to nurse the 2 sick but active babies and also look after a very weak big baby.

Tuesday….everything back to normal!

Delighted

After more than 3 months of loosing access to my Yahoo mailbox and more than 60 mails to the customer support without any respond, I have given up hope on them….but when I checked my gmail on Sunday night… I’m so delighted to have received a new password for my Yahoo account….

Yea! Finally got my mailbox back when I least expected it….